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Q&A: Siddha Yoga & 'Growing Pains'
Knowledge, Fear and Trust
8 Sep 2003
Namaste & Blessings, Sanju,
This is Swami Devi Nostrumanda, Spiritual Directof or IBASI Healing Ministries, here in the United States. I am disciple to the Siddha lineage of Swamis Chidvilasananda/Muktanananda/Nityananda.
I understand the fears and trepidations you and your family are going through. So often when one is ascending rapidly, it is very intense and frightening, because of lack of reliable information, no books or writings to comfort you that this is infact good and normal... and fellowship with those who are similar. Rest assured that you are very blessed and this is an extremely great gift of Grace, and of course, further education and explanation is in order, so that you and your family have right understanding. This will ease your fears and anxieties, decrease resistance to the rapid and high-level transformations taking place, and allow you to let go and release into the process instead of fighting it, and cherish and be truly grateful for this great gift from God.
Simply put - trust your Guru. He is correct. Follow him with deep and complete devotion and trust, his direction is the compassionate Will of God, do not be afraid. It is your time, it is the Will of God, and indeed, resistance is futile and counterproductive. Remember the external Guru is infact the embodiment of the Grace-bestowing power of God, and that the MahaShaktipat Diksha you received is very very rare and very precious and 'bahod-acha'. ok?
Also, I suggest you read Baba Muktananda's book, "The Play of Consciousness", it is his own story of ascension and you will find all your worries will be addressed here and dissolved. IBASI Healing Ministries has a bookstore that makes this book available, it is $25.00 USDollars + shipping in the USA ( tax for California), and contact me if you would like the cost for shipping to your location. You may also visit with me for darshan by phone if you wish. I would be honored to receive a fellow disciple of God.
Sadgurunath Maharaj Ki Jay,
Swami Devi Nostrumananada
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PLEASE HELP ME IF YOU KNOW SOMEONE
Just by looking at the photo of my guru power enters in the seekers.
He claims that his power is similar to muktanand yoga .This power
works through one gye at one time through out the world.
When i got deksha he did not touch me only he told one mantra &
advised me to feel him at my third eye. I felt something is
penetrating through my third eye .As well i heard a noise inside my
ears which was coming from my brain inside. From that onward daily i
started doing meditation by chattering his mantra .I felt sensation
in my all chakras most of the time in third eye & last chakra. after
some time mantra given to me start itself without my effort even if
i try to stop this mantra i was unable to do this.I called up my
guru he said continue practicing it is good sign agpa jap has
started. MY noise inside ears was increasing meditation was going
well. Gradually i started feeling tremendious heat inside my body.
too much weakness inside body.
One thing i notoced whwnever i pooga any form of god i feel so
problem .
After asking to my guru he replied you cannot do any pooja except my
mantra otherwise you will be in trouble.My problems were increasing
day by day further i felt burning sensation at my heart ,severe pain
inside my brain,my concentration finished even i was unable to read
news paper . I felt that something is trying to stop my breathing.
Guru said you continue it was unbearable for me to continue.I
finally decided to stop .Bt guru said now you cannot stop you cannot
move away from this power.
when i stop doing this same symtoms started in me. mantra started
itself if i tried to stopmantra but i felt my breathing will stop. I
feelt severe pain in my brain , at my organs , burning sensation at
heart.I consulted doctors lot of test were done . Neourologist test
several things but nothing changed. Finally i met some people who
vere practical yogis
they said your guru is sucking your power . I got tantrik treatment
of these yogis & got lot of relief. bit they clearely said we can
not cure you properly the power given by your guru is very strong.
Gradually i started Gayatri mantra jaap in rishikesh . I took leave
for one month & sit near ganga . For somedays i found whwnever i
started gayatri jaap my guru photo comes at my third eye byforse. I
tried to remove this image but for 15 days i was helpless. Further i
cintinue my jaap & got relex.
tremendious changes comes over here i was feeling relex through jap
but
siddha power start creating problems to my mother / father/ brothers
All were feeling same symtoms noise inside ears , burning sensation
ets.If i do gayatri jaap i feel good but family comes under
trouble .If i stop jaap for saving my family then myself comes
under trouble.
But my love toward god saves me My concious suggested not to stop my
gayatri mantra jaap .after three year today i am out of trouble
approx. 80% .But i am unable to make me seperate from this power .
If i left my pooja for one or two days this power start attacking me
till today .
that is all about my story. I hope you will suggeat me some solution.
sanju.
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